Monday, August 30, 2010

I'm back

So I've been slacking off a bit during the summer. For a number of reasons. Mainly that work gets so busy in the summer and summer is so short: time is precious. I thought that sitting at the computer was probably not the best use of my time when it was so nice out.

But also because I was going through one of those "non-sharing" phases. Do you know what I'm talking about? When you feel like your feelings are YOURS and you don't want anyone else to know them. When you get very protective and selfish about your thoughts, feelings, time, activities.

I often get this way about running. I oscillate between wanting to join up with a running group and then feeling like running is MY time to think and be alone. Sometimes I don't want to share my running time with anyone else.

This summer, I kind of felt that way about blogging. I just wanted my thoughts in my head and nowhere else.

But lately, I've been feeling rather cranky and moody. My thoughts swimming around my head have been rather mean-spirited, toward both myself and others. I think a lot of this can be attributed to eating poorly and drinking too much. But perhaps also because those thoughts have been kept locked in my head.

When I first started blogging, I did so to get those relentless mean post break-up thoughts out of my head. And I do think it helped. A lot.

SO now, while I am in a deep blue funk, and before I drop down into something more than a funk, I'm returning to the blogging world. And eating better.

I got lots to share. See ya tomorrow!


Amanda - RunToTheFinish said...

I have a major life issue happening and I refuse to share it with the blog world... so we understand. Just know that we're here for the good and bad

Anonymous said...

I know that feeling all too well, and have stopped blogging at those times myself.

Of course, other times I've stopped simply because nothing that interesting is going on! LOL