Sunday, July 26, 2009

draining weekend

Hi all!

It's been an exhausting weekend, both physically and emotionally. I went to a pilates mat certification class which was fantastic, and now my entire body feels like it's stretched just a little too tight. I can feel exactly where every one of my core muscles originates and ends. And it sort of feels good, sort of feels like I want to cry.

I saw my neice and nephew this weekend and that's always fun. It's amazing how they can be so cute and so terrifying within seconds. My nephew told me a story about how the bunny in the yard had a birthday party with a chipmunk, a mouse, a squirrel, and the cast of "Madagascar". And then my neice had a melt down the likes of which I have never personally witnessed. It rivaled anything I've ever seen on "Supernanny". It lasted over an hour. But when all was said and done and she was on the sofa, red, puffy eyed, and completely spent, she just wanted to know if I still loved her even though she was naughty. I said no.

I'm kidding! The poor thing looked so concerned that I actually might not love her anymore, it made me want to cry.

And then, this weekend, I did cry.

My grandfather passed away on Saturday night. He died peacefully. He was able to stay at home on his own terms until the very end. He lived a good life. I tell myself these things, but I'm still crying.

Much like my neice, I am completely spent.

And still, life goes marching on.

4 comments:

the gazelle said...

I'm sorry to hear of your loss - and I hope that the healing from your grandfather's passing (and your pilates certification) begins soon.

Carolina John said...

oh man -- sorry to hear about your grandfather. i lost my grandfather abouta month before we got married (10 years ago) and I still miss him all the time.

spleeness said...

I'm late to this blog entry. I gathered he passed after reading that you were going through his things. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. Maybe one day as a memorial to him you can post some pictures and tell us what he was like? Either way hang in there. My thoughts are with you.

geekhiker said...

Sorry to hear about the loss of your Grandfather. Hope you're 'doin okay.